Mummy's Feeling Anxious

I am facing this kind of situation where my baby daughter refuses to drink from feeding bottle when me and husband are around. Again. I also tried some formula milk to top up my ebm, since my ebm stock has depleted. On a normal working day, I bring 3 bottles of ebm to her babysitter's. After 5pm, she usually 'mengempeng' because mummy is around.

This give me anxiety, Will she drink formula milk from her bottle when I am out of town? A friend once said,  Don't worry. Your child will drink the milk when you are not there, and she will understand that mummy has to work.

Easier said than done huh? But I am not convinced. Even when babah tried to feed her, she rejected the mik bottle without hesitation. *sigh* What should I do? I have tried 3 different brands including the renowned goat's milk on the shelves. In fact, we also bought her a new fancy feeding bottle and a sippy cup. The anxiety comes when mummy has to work out of town. And this feeling goes on and off. 

Around the Clock

I don't know if I need to blog about this or not.

You know, life as a mother is not an easy task.

I think I need more than 24 hours per day.

My routine starts at 6.40 am.

After morning bath, I quickly off to the kitchen to blend Ayra's porridge that I let it cooked overnight using a slow cooker. Oh, thanks to whom that invented the cooker.

Ayra will cry and ask for milk (or just want to ngempeng).

I have no other option, so I let her ngempeng sambil baring.

I have to ask husband to change Ayra's diaper meanwhile I get dress.

Off to work, punch in and send Ayra to her babysitter's.

After 5 pm, I fetch Ayra.

Cook porridge for Ayra's dinner.

Prepare for dinner.

After Isya' prayer, I start cooking.

Dinner around 9.45pm (ini dikira lewat ni).

Check Ayra's diaper bag, prepare EBM.

Doze off at 12.30 am.

Breastfeeding goes on and on and on from dusk till the break of dawn.

Err, the next morning, I am hungry like a T-Rex. Haha. 

The reason to come home early

Miss this young lady every second

Matlamat

Tahun baru setiap orang mesti ada azam. Aku tak nak letak perkataan 'azam' tu sebab nanti macam azam tinggal azam je. So dalam otak aku set, 'matlamat' yg mesti aku capai. Oh tahun lepas macam2 peristiwa berlaku. Walau bagaimanapun kita mesti bersyukur sebab masih diberi kesempatan untuk bernafas dan menggunakan nikmat yg Allah kurniakan.

So, tahun ni aku sasarkan beberapa perkara yg aku MESTI achieve:

1- Jaga solat

2- Journal publication

3- Siapkan thesis 

4- Pindah rumah baru by June 2015

5- Kurangkan online shopping

6- Nak aktif bersukan

Haha, yg #5 tu aku macam was-was lak boleh ke aku achieve ni??? Yelah, most of the time I shop for Ayra. Baju, kasut, breastpump accessories, toys, macam2 lagi lah. Kadang2 barang2 tu mana nak dapat kat Kluang ni haaa.. Nasib baik Ikea tak de buat online shopping & boleh deliver seluruh malaysia, selamat duit aku!

Embracing 2015

Today marked the last day of year 2014. Alhamdulillah all went well, although there have been a lot of ups and downs. Some were sweet, a few bitter stories. In April, I gave birth to a sweet baby girl after 15 months of conceiving. She is currently at 8.5 months. A month after, 25 May, we celebrated our 2nd wedding anniversary. But without fancy dinner, no romantic getaway. Because I was in my confinement with kain batik and loose shirt. So-not-sexy. Haha. On 18 October, we hosted an Aqiqah Ceremony for Ayra. Alhamdulillah. We celebrated everyone's birthday, anniversary and had family dinner. Tahun ni banyak makan kek. But my sister's was the best. Because mama and ayah hosted an Open House cum her birthday party. Takpelah kiranya 21st birthday yg best la tu. 

This year we heard devastating news; the missing MH370, the crash of MH17, the Gaza assault, and currently the flood at pantai timur. Let's pray and hope for the best. 

In November, a week after ayah's birthday, my family was shocked to hear a news that ayah was rushed to the hospital due to difficulty in breathing. Alhamdulillah, ayah masih bersama kami. He was diagnosed with myocardiac infarction a.k.a heart attack. Now, mama has to monitor his daily food uptake and practice good diet. No fried food, low fat and low calorie.

Thank you Allah for giving me strength to face this whole year. I really hope this coming 2015 I will be a better person. Ya Allah, bantulah aku memperkukuhkan ibadahku. Jadikan aku isteri dan ibu yg lebih berjaya. Lapangkan rezeki kami sekeluarga. Ameen. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!

Review: Farmasi CC Cream

Jarang aku buat review pasal make-up. Sebabnya aku sendiri pun jarang make-up. Kalau pegi office tu sapu Bodyshop compact powder dan pakai lip gloss brand lip ice aje. Macam budak2 kan.. Dah tua macam ni pun lipstick tak nak pakai. Aku  takut pakai lipstick bibir jadi hitam. Tu yg aku pakai lip ice manjang. 

Tapi kali ni aku saje buat review foundation yg aku rasa best sangat. Sebelum ni beli yg Maybelline yg matte finish aku pakai sekali 2 je kot. Last2 aku bagi adik aku. Sebab tak sesuai dengan kulit. Lepas apply dalam setengah jam, muka aku start berminyak. Eeee, terus tak nak pakai dah. Compact powder pun sama jugak. Lama aku hunting cari yg betul2 sesuai dgn kulit aku yg sensitif. Finally jumpa Bodyshop punya. Memang mahal sikit tapi yg penting kulitku bahagia.

Farmasi CC (Color Control) Cream ni sebenarnya yg aku nak cerita. Memang best sgt. Semalam jugak aku pegi beli dan test malam tadi. Pagi tadi apply CC cream ni lepas tu pakai bedak, hasilnya sangat selesa. Dia bagi powdery finish. Tak greasy pun. Plus Farmasi punya produk disahkan Halal. Ni produk dari Turkey. Patutlah ramai yg cakap best CC ni, memang iye pun. So aku rasa aku stick dgn foundation ni lah. 

Korang boleh baca kat website Farmasi official pasal product description. Click fcc.m1.my

- ada 2 colors: Light to Medium, Medium to Dark

- tekstur halus

- powdery finish dan tak berminyak

- tak perlu amount yg banyak untuk dapatkan tona kulit yg sekata (menjimatkan!)

- harga sangat affordable RM45.90

- banyak terdapat di major retailers or drugstore (senang cari!) sebab aku beli dekat parkson je

- halal (Produk Turkey)

- mudah ditanggalkan tak perlu genyeh kuat2 sangat

Disclaimer: Ni pendapat berdasarkan pengalaman, setiap orang mungkin berbeza.

How Would U React?

How would u react when someone that you've been nice to her/him, but at the end of the day he/she say something bad about you? I think this is typical attitude that most agency / company have at least one person with this awful attitude. 

That is why I never put any trust to anyone in the office. Unless my fellow researchers, but we are at different states. So sad. I think I had misjudge this particular person. I thought that she is a nice person, the way she talks, she is a soft-spoken type of person. But who would know how she talk bad about other staffs. Alrignt, lesson learnt. Never ever judge a book by its cover. That's it!

Review: Pigeon Peristaltic Plus Bottle

I had this kind of problem which is my baby rejected her Tommee Tippee bottle. This happened when I left her with husband while working at the head office. I had to tag along both of them and hubby had babysit Ayra at the hotel while mummy was out for a meeting with the boss. So, this is how the story begins. Ayra refused ebm in feeding bottle. She cried out loud until husband had to bring her out from the hotel room and 'tawaf' the whole Alamanda shopping mall. Oh, luckily the hotel is just adjacent Alamanda so hubby can escape there.

The other story is we had to leave Ayra at my mom's place because her babysitter was out of town. My mom said she only drank 2 oz out of 4 oz of ebm. My oh my! And she also had some apple puree for her lunch. I started to panic but my mom remained as calm as possible. Because she had experiences in handling her kids. Hee.

Then i came across some mother's review on Pigeon bottle. Most of them gave positive feedbacks. Finally I bought one Pigeon Peristaltic Plus Bottle (Polypropylene) for Ayra. That night I was experimenting and tadaaaa it works wonders. Some mothers use the term, "Magical Bottle". And it's true. Ayra has started to drink from Pigeon bottle. Phewww, it is such a relief when I saw Ayra can easily adapting to the new soft teat. And I saw hubby smiling happily. Alhamdulillah. So, as for now bye bye Tommee Tippee bottle. Kita simpan dulu untuk adik Ayra pulak.

For any info, go to www.pigeon-my.com

Melawa

Aku rasa lately sejak dah ada anak ni, aku macam dah tak melawa dah. Yelah, kalau keluar rumah tu aku nak senang pakai tudung awning express tu je. Korang tau tak, bila sebelum ada anak, husband aku tak prefer aku pakai tudung awning, katanya aku nampak mcm mak cik.  Tapi sekarang, sejak dah jadi mak orang, dia ok pulak sebab nak senang, ringkas dan cepat. Yelah, bila time anak meragam nak nenen ke apa, masa tu sangat2 berharga, kena pantas jadinya. Tak sompek den nak pakai shawl lilit2 dahhh. 

Kalau bab make up lagilah kan. Aku ni bukan yg suka make up pun. Just pakai compact powder utk shine control dan lip gloss je bagi bibir tak pucat. Jeles tengok mak2 orang lain melawa pakai dress, skirt, shawl lilit2, make up cun2. Macam mana diorang sempat buat semua tu eh? Aku kalau solat kat surau kalau boleh nak optimumkan masa supaya Ayra tak tunggu lama. I think for this period of time, sejak Ayra dah lasak nak suka tarik2 tudung, tudung awning express is the best solution. Tunggu Ayra besar sikit kot baru start melawa balik. Kesian husband aku, tengok bini sempoi sangat. Hee.

Review: Medela Swing

Ayra dah masuk 7 bulan dan fully breastfed walaupun dah start solid. Alhamdulillah. Hari ni aku nak share experience aku terhadap Medela Swing Breastpump. Aku beli kat One Baby World JB masa aku pregnant 8 bulan lagi. Ni dengan pakej cooler bag, ice pack, storage bottle and nursing bra, semuanya RM 790.00 kalau tak silap. Masa tu aku tak fikir pun nanti lepas bersalin susu banyak ke tak? Ayra reject breastmilk ke tak? Tawakal je. Lagipun aku dah study dari review orang yg Medela ni bagus.

Disclaimer: This is my point of view, setiap orang pengalaman berbeza.

Pros:

- suction lembut mimic baby's suction

- handy, ringan, kecil 

- pam yg senyap & almost unnoticeable (ni kawan2 aku cakap sbb bila diorang pegi bilik aku, diorang tak     sedar pun yg aku sambil mengepam discretely)

- bentuk bulat yg comel

- sangat mudah nak assemble parts

- sangat mudah nak basuh parts sebab tak banyak parts

- compatible dgn storage bottle brand Autumnz, Bumble Bee, Jingle Jungle

- boleh guna direct current (DC), 4 biji battery AA atau powerbank (ni aku baru discover!)

- boleh beli milk collection cup utk breast sebelah lg (elak pembaziran susu)

Tips: 

untuk guna powerbank, beli USB cable Lacte breastpump kat fabulous mom online (RM18.90). Aku  dah bereksperimen dgn powerbank Lacte officemate aku. So, aku berjaya! Guna powerbank power suction lebih baik mcm guna DC compared with guna battery mcm slow sikit.

See, it's working with Lacte USB cable!

Cons:

- harga agak pricey 

- pernah 2x berlaku backflow

- spare parts pun agak pricey

Cara elak backflow:

1) pastikan semua parts kering

2) pastikan pam berada lebih tinggi dari breast anda. kalau pam atas lantai, tinggikam kedudukan pam tu (boleh letak atas beg)

Jika berlaku backflow:

1) off pam dgn segera bg elak susu masuk pam yg bahagian dlm

2) basuh tiub yg dah dimasuki susu & keringkan

3) check pam bahagian dalam & pastikan tiada susu yg masuk bahagian elektronik (kalau susu masuk, pam boleh rosak & bersemut).

Ni jelah review aku pasal Medela Swing Single Pump. Aku puas hati dgn hasil tuaian setiap hari. Nak susu meriah? Kena pam setiap 3-4 jam sekali, minum air masak 2L sehari, eat well, jgn stress dan paling penting faham konsep supply & demand. Yang utama sekali, doa utk dimurahkan rezeki anak. Hope this helps mom-to-be yg masih mencari2 breastpump apa yg sesuai. Happy breastfeeding! 

One happy baby

Tabiat Buruk

Pagi ni rasa tak sihat lak. Hidung dah berair sejak 2 hari lepas. Agaknya aku berjangkit dgn Ayra. Takpelah, asalkan Ayra dah recover. Mungkin khasiat susu ibu bantu cepat pulihkan demam dia. Alhamdulillah. Semalam mula bersin2 waktu malam, tambahan pulak petang2 hujan lebat. Bagi naik mood sikit, mari menulis entri. Hari ni nak cerita pasal tabiat buruk. Aku ada. Banyak betul.

1) Suka shop online

Ini macam contagious. Gila aku ni. Selagi ada internet access kat office, selagi tu tangan rajin benor bukak website tudung, barang2 baby, nursing dress/jubah. Haihhhh. Macam mana nak stop addiction ni? Asal balik dari office, bawak parcel poslaju, sure Shafiq tanya, "Ni bila masa pulak beli?", "Mummy ni suka sgt beli online!". Itu dinamakan terapi. Aku suka pergi website One Baby World, Fabulous Mom, Poplook, Sugarscarf, Radiusite, Zawara, Cala Qisya, Bella Ammara dan lain2. Banyak nak listdown. Bila shop online utk anak, dalam otak cakap, "Ah takpelah, untuk Ayra jugak."

2) Tak suka (malas) lipat & iron baju

Aku rasa ramai jugak kot yg macam aku. Bab2 basuh baju, jemur, angkat aku suka. Tapi bab lipat, iron, aku lemau. Sanggup longgok dalam bakul besar letak baju, dengan alasan tunggu weekend nak lipat baju secara maraton dgn Shafiq. Aku siap cakap kalau boleh nak upah orang lipat baju, sehelai 10sen.

Iron baju pun sangat lemau. Aku akan iron baju malam/pagi sebelum kerja. Bukan macam sesetengah orang yg iron baju utk 5 hari kerja. Pemalas betul aku. Nasib baik Shafiq ok je utk iron baju kerja dia sendiri. Dia kesian kat aku sejak aku pregnant lagi. Tapi baju dia yg lain, akulah yg iron. 

3) Tarik seat belt bila driver lain bagi lampu tinggi

Aku rasa tabiat 'Tarik seat belt bila driver lain bagi lampu tinggi' ni berlaku kat ramai orang jugak. Aku kalau jalan dekat2 memang tak pakai seat belt, senang Ayra nak nenen. Lepas tu bila in coming cars bagi lampu tinggi, kelam kabut tarik seat belt, sebab bajet depan sure ada roadblock. 

Eh, lately teringin Nescafe yg ada foam. Ini pelik. Sebab aku orang teh. Bukan kopi. 

Ini bukan hasil online shopping.
Tapi kirim makcik aku beli kat NZ masa warehouse sale.
Lebih jimat $$$.

Entering 30 wks

Mashaallah, how times fly. 10 wks to end this wonderful journey. And almost reach to the final stage. So soon to meet my baby that we have waited for 15 months. Alhamdulillah, Allah has eased my journey & I really enjoyed the moments.

As for the prep for our lil one, me & husband haven't gone shopping for our baby's outfits. Kononnya nak pergi shopping masa 32 wks boleh aku exercise berjalan banyak sekaligus. Secara psikologi, kalau untuk menyarung sepasang running shoes & mengenakan sweat pants with cotton shirt adalah 'bercinta' untuk aku buat. Dengan alasan, takde mase la... Tapi bila bab shopping hatta berpusing 1 shopping mall pun aku rela.. So, nak mudah, ajak je husband pergi shopping, maka isterinya yg bulat ini akan memulakan seribu langkah. Haha.

Part yg tak syok bagi aku ialah aku dah buat 2x test minum air gula or Modified Glucose Tolerance Test (MGTT). Yg aku nak marah kat Dr klinik kesihatan tu ialah dia macam sloppy je bila check reading Random Blood Sugar aku. Tanpa membuat sedikit penelitian, dia ikut je apa yg lab technologist tu punya result. Balik rumah ceritalah kat husband aku. Oh ye, husband aku kerja dia kat hospital dekat lab macam tu, yg buat analysis blood, urine sample tu semua. The point is, husband said my blood sugar is OK. NORMAL. He was pissed off when he heard about the Dr's sloppiness when it comes to analysing a patient's blood test. Dia kesianlah kat wife dia kena minum gula 2x padahal previous result aku NORMAL. Aku bab puasa, cucuk2 ambil darah ni takde hal. Yg jadi hal, bab nak minum glucose syrup tu. Serius macam scene fear factor kau tau. U know kat gov punya syrup tu rasa dia plain. Aku dengar kat private ada flavor grape, orange lagi. Sorry aku mengomel pasal aku geram kat Dr yg sloppy2 je kerjanya. 

Sekarang dah 30wks. Dalam otak ni hanya fikir, bila aku nak beranak ni? Sebab aku ada several makanan yg aku teringin nak makan sebelum aku beranak. Aku teringin Coconut shake Klebang, nak makan tengahari kat kedai kari kepala ikan kat Bukit Katil, Melaka, aku nak biskut mazola jugak. Padahal time tak pregnant & hari raya biskut mazola tu aku tak heran langsung. 

Finishing the 2nd Trimester

Currently I'm 26 weeks pregnant. Another 1 week to finish my 2nd trimester. Alhamdulillah both mummy & baby are doing well. Undergone a 4D ultrasound at 25 weeks. Me and husband were over the moon the moment we saw our lil one. To our surprise she managed to open her mouth repeatedly. That has brought husband to a big grin. Meanwhile mummy is so obsess seeing her baby's 4D picture, rubbing her belly and say, "Sayang anak mummy, cepat besar dan sihat yeeee..". What a bliss! Syukur..

Last weekend, mummy and babah had spent some ka-ching to buy some necessities for their baby. Ok, mummy yg over excited bila shopping untuk anak. Sebelum ni, masuk baby shop beli present utk baby kawan2, but this time, shopping utk anak sendiri. Of course super duper happy kan... Tapi bila balik, kaki dan badan mula sakit2. Ah, kecik punya hal tu, urut2 guna minyak panas hilanglah sakit.

I've gained 8 kg throughout this journey. Ah, I just don't give a damn. Nanti time berpantang kita akan dapat kurus balik. Haha. Mampukah? Oh ye, we had register for an ante-natal class at KPJ Johor Bahru end of this month. Murah sangat, RM32 per couple. Lagi pun, ada banyak praktikal. First moms elok pergi kelas tu sebab diorang akan coach kita macam2. 

Bab vacation pun tak update lagi, nak upload picture lagilah 'rajin' kan.. Sekarang ni dalam fasa membuat persediaan mental dan fiikal menghadapi kelahiran tak lama lagi. Fuh, paling cepat pun baca kes ada yg deliver at 35 weeks. Meaning to say, kalau deliver awal, paling2 pun ada plus minus 10 weeks je. Fuh fuh fuh... Bab nak deliver pun 1 hal lagi, tak tau kat mana. Aisey, husband update specialist kat hospital dia ramai yg dah transfer hospital lain. Hm, kalau nak beranak kat KPJ, specialist dia lelaki pulak, bab2 seluk2 ni yg buat iol risau kalau Dr lelaki. Macam mana ni?

That Worries Me

I will enter 21 weeks this Saturday. The problem is, I am not sure if I have felt movements from my baby. How is my baby doing? Is he/she growing well? This situation puts me in anxiety.

Last Saturday, before bed, I started to worry. I barely close my eyes to sleep. On the next day, I asked husband to send me to seek for a Dr. Ultrasound done and Alhamdulillah, my baby is doing fine. I saw my baby's heartbeat and that was a quick relief. 

As of today, I am still in a state of confusion. The nurses & the gynae of Klinik Kesihatan keep asking me if I have felt any movements. I don't have any clues as this is my first time. My friends said, the movement is like a sensation of a butterfly flapping its wing so hard and rapidly. I do felt like a gas moving quickly in my womb. I think that came from the movement. Please help me to calm myself. I feel discourage. -_-"

A Brand New Blog

Peace be upon you.
This is a brand new blog with a brand new hope.
I dedicate this to my future children.
I will share my own experience, thoughts and ramblings.
Feel free to visit and leave a comment.



♥ Nina