That Worries Me

I will enter 21 weeks this Saturday. The problem is, I am not sure if I have felt movements from my baby. How is my baby doing? Is he/she growing well? This situation puts me in anxiety.

Last Saturday, before bed, I started to worry. I barely close my eyes to sleep. On the next day, I asked husband to send me to seek for a Dr. Ultrasound done and Alhamdulillah, my baby is doing fine. I saw my baby's heartbeat and that was a quick relief. 

As of today, I am still in a state of confusion. The nurses & the gynae of Klinik Kesihatan keep asking me if I have felt any movements. I don't have any clues as this is my first time. My friends said, the movement is like a sensation of a butterfly flapping its wing so hard and rapidly. I do felt like a gas moving quickly in my womb. I think that came from the movement. Please help me to calm myself. I feel discourage. -_-"

Bakal Ibu Terlampau

Aku ni melampau tau. Dulu sebelum preggy siap berangan bila preggy nanti nak buat maternity photo shoot la. Siap fikir props apa yg aku akan guna nanti. Lepas tu siap dok prepare nama2 anak lelaki & perempuan. Haihhh.. Pathetic tak aku?

Tapi sekarang lagi melampau-lampau. Aku siap dah terbayang nak buat majlis aqiqah & cukur jambul kat rumah mama. Nak ada buaian berendoi. Aku dah fikir tema color siap2. Kalau baby girl, dia akan pakai maxi dress aku masa baby dulu yg color peach & headband putih, family aku pun pakai peach. Kalau baby boy, aku nak pakaikan dia baju melayu light yellow, maka family aku pun akan pakai light yellow. Tak ketinggalan doorgift nak bagi pulut kuning, kari ayam & kurma sebab nanti aku cun2 habis confinement hujung Mei, early June or mid June boleh buat majlis. See, berangan kan.. Or lebih kepada plan ni? #tepukdahi

Lepas tu lagi berangan nak celebrate 1st birthday kat rumah baru kami. Siap dah berangan menu apa, kek macam mana, deko macam mana nak buat. Hailah anak, mummy awak ni outrageous sangat tau!

Lepas tu, aku siap dah fikir education anak aku. Umur 4 tahun aku nak enroll dia kat islamic kindergarden, yg guna English lebih sikit dari BM. Hmm, mana aku nak cari kat sini? Kalau bandar besar senanglah. Lepas tu nak guna psikologi pendidikan macam yg Wardina Safiyyah buat kat anak dia. Mampukah kami?

After all, anak aku ni baru je 5 bulan dalam rahim ni. Mummy dia baik punya berangan lebih kan. Of course la sebagai 1st mom-to-be... Eh, korang ada ke berangan macam aku ni?