Achievement Unlocked

NIP (nursing in public). Dulu masa belom ada anak, tengok ibu2 nurse anak in public, i was like "My oh my, macam mana dia buat tu? Tak nampak boobies ke?"

Alhamdulillah, i manage to breastfeed Ayra in public discretely without a nursing cover. Bunyi macam hebat. Thanks a lottttt to my nursing tops yg sangat banyak available online. Oh, itulah tujuan shop online. Alasan kat suami, "Beli baju nyusulah babahhhh." Senang sangat ada nursing top ni. Tak payah selak baju nampak perut yg belom kempis lagi tu. Just selak sikit kat area boobs and terus bagi anak nenen. Sambil jalan2 & shopping pun boleh nenen without a fuss!

Lepas tu achievement lagi 1, aku berjaya tukar diaper Ayra anywhere masa pergi jalan2. Dalam kereta tu dah selalu sangat, sebab habit si Ayra ni asal jalan naik kereta dia paling suka, nenen dalam aircond, tidur atas lap aku dan yakkkk. Maka mummy & babah dah makin expert bab2 tukar diaper dlm kereta. Hihi. 

Oh, my Jumpsac ring sling dah sampai, lepas ni harus praktis nursing dalam ring sling pulak. Tu lg discrete sebab tak perasan langsung baby tengah nenen dalam tu. Wahai ibu2, saya syorkan babywearing & sangat recommend.

Kalau ikut pengalaman aku, aku tak terus beli any baby carrier sehingga aku mencuba ring sling and wrap utk Ayra since dia 2 bulan. Bagi aku, ring sling senang sebab on the go compared with wrap yg aku rasa agak leceh sikit sebab kena angkut kain tebal2 and proses melilit tu macam susah sikit. Tengok mommies yg terer & hard core pakai wrap ni buat aku respek kat diorang. 

Aku mula dengan ring sling yg aku rent dari Selat Tebrau Babywearers (STB) dengan hanya RM15/2 weeks. Siap pinjam sampai 2 bulan tu. Sebab aku dah mula jatuh cinta dgn ring sling. Husband pun dah mula bagi galakan sebab dia nampak benefit of babywearing di situ. Lepas tu lagi la dia galakkan aku beli sendiri ring sling. Fuhh, bila dah pegang ring sling sendiri, rasa syok gila. Haha. Sebab aku rasa aku macam dah obses dgn babywearing. Ibu2, please aware yg crotch carrier adalah tidak baik utk bayi anda. Sila buat research & google kenapa tak sihat ye. Dan penting utk tidak membuat forward facing utk bayi. Boleh tengok kat bawah ni;

Carrier yg bawah ni adalah yg recommended dan selamat dari aspek posisi kaki bayi yg lebih relaks;

Ring sling Pandora Series. From Jumpsac Baby.

Ni pun Pandora. Tapi semua sold out. T_T

Ni yg aku beli akhirnya

Eyeing on this Boba 4g

Nak nangis sebab lawaaa. From neezaneedles.

Ni pun comel sangat. From Snuggbaby.

Ayra's Birth Chronology

Alhamdulillah, dah 2 bulan bergelar ibu. I miss my pregnancy journey and it was such a wonderful experience. Ok, my due date was 18 April 2014, 40 weeks to be exact. I was hoping to give birth a week earlier so that my youngest sister would have enough time to babysit her niece at my mum's.

But I only felt Braxton Hicks a week before my due date. The sensation was irregular and mild. I told myself, "Bilalah nak datang sakit nak bersalin ni?".

To cut it short, on 16 April 2014 evening, i felt a few mild cramps, but they were irregular and were gone below 1 min. I was like, "Ah, they were just Braxton Hicks!". I still could bear the pain. Around 1 in the morning, I started to feel frequent cramps. I told DH to send me to the hospital early in the morning. I asked him to sleep well. But my pain was getting intense but still bearable. That whole night, I couldn't sleep. "I think the baby will pop out pretty soon!".

To fade away the pain, I went to my kitchen and cleaned some mess, swept the floor. And started to get my hospital bags ready. I tried to take cat nap because I was so tired and sleepy. At last, I felt asleep with the pain.

Around 6 am, I took my shower, performed Subuh prayer and recited Surah Maryam. But the pain was unbearable and became more frequent. I woke DH up and asked him to get ready. He also made me a mug of warm milo for energy.

We left our house for the hospital at 7.45am on 17 April. After registration at Dewan Bersalin, a nurse checked my baby's heart rate through CTG. When the contraction came, I just closed my eyes and recited Doa Nabi Yunus. I knew the time has come. The nurse did VE and I was 1cm dilated.

After an hour, a young female Dr did an ultrasound. She told me that my baby could weigh 3.6-3.8kg. And she considered as a big baby case. She also mentioned about having csect because of 'the big baby' plus this was my 1st pregnancy and it was quite risky. My heart was going to explode. I wasn't prepare for any major operation. I wanted a vaginal birth. The Dr from Klinik Kesihatan said my baby weighed below 3 kg. I was upset and speechless.

She asked me to stay at home until the contraction became more frequent and regular. The worst part was I threw up when the contractions came. In short, I was dehydrated. Then, we rushed to the hospital and finally I got admitted.

I couldn't bear the contraction. I asked for pain killers. A nurse gave me a jab but the pain wasn't subside. I was given IV drip to stay hydrated.

That night I asked for another pain killer jab. Ya Allah, the pain was unbearable. I wanted this child to pop out real soon. I also asked the nurses to do VE. At last, around 1230am, 18 April 2014, i was 5 cm dilated. Then, I was rushed to the labour room. Called DH to wait me there and get ready for the delivery.

At 530am, I was 6cm dilated but there was an urge to push the baby out. A young indian female Dr kept reminding me, "Don't push the baby out, wait until 10cm dilated.". She broke my waterbag to speed up the dilation rate. But the progress was pretty slow. I couldn't bear the urge. When the urge came, I had to pull and hold it back. The pain was getting worse, I asked for entonox and epidural.

Sadly, the Dr couldn't cater that because 1) entonox will keep me unsober and 'stoned'. 2) epidural can be requested during working hours 8am-5pm. The Dr said they will send me for emergency c-sect if my dilation progress is poor and she asked me to wait and bear the pain until 8am. I requested for the c-sect to be done soon and I didn't want to wait until 8am. Plus it was a 'big baby case'.

After getting a consensus from DH, they rushed me to the OT. Alhamdulillah, finally at 6.32 am on 18 April 2014, Raja Ayra bt. Raja Shafiq Mukri was born. She weighed 3.3kg. And they classified my case as,  LSCS for suspected big baby. I felt so relieved as long as my baby is safe and healthy.

Everything was fine, I was discharged on 20 April 2014. Alhamdulillah, now my career as a mother has just begun. May the force be with me always.

Fresh from womb

The new (swelling) mom

The baby who was suspected to be big

The not-so-big baby that weighed only 3.3kg

Throwback: At 32 weeks of pregnancy

Masa mengandungkan Ayra at 32 weeks, Ayra bagi 'heart attack' kat mummy. Hari tu pada 15 Feb 2014 gerakan baby kurang dari 10 pada jam 10 mlm. Aku dah menangis2 risau. Aku dah cakap kat DH yg aku nak gi hospital nak check. Dia yakin kata, "Mesti ok tu.",

Aku yg mengandung lagi cuak sebab dari tengahari baby kurang aktif. Biasa lepas makan dia tendang2, tapi hari tu bila aku tekan2 perut, respon kurang.

Ok, jam 10.30 mlm tu akhirnya kami ke hospital. Tak jauh pun, 5min drive je. Aku dah siap standby baju2 mana tau kena tahan wad. Sampai je Dewan Bersalin, nurse buat CTG. Surprisingly masa buat CTG tu baby kemain aktif. Haa..sahlah anak aku ni aktif malam2.

Dr kata aku kena tahan wad, nak monitor baby 24 jam katanya. Setiap 4 jam nurse akan check heartbeat baby. Alhamdulillah semua normal. Dua hari kena tahan wad dah macam orang sakit pulak. Tidur makan tidur makan. Oh, aku buat post ni sebab aku nak dokumenkan 1st pregnancy aku ni. Jadi macam jurnal, so that someday Ayra dan adik2nya (InshaAllah jika ada rezeki lagi) boleh baca jurnal yg aku tulis ni.

I was like, "Alaaaa kena tahan wad. Nanti Yang tidur sorang2.."

Ayra 2 months

Yesterday my daughter was 60 days old. She had her hair shaved on last Saturday. Alhamdulillah, perkara sunat dah pun dibuat. Sepatutnya hari ke7 cukur kepala. Tapi mummy belum habis pantang lagi.

Apa yg aku faham, rambut yg dicukur akan ditimbang dan disamakan dgn nilai emas 1 gram. Wang tersebut disedekahkan kpd fakir miskin.

Akhirnya Ayra dah botak. Kena selalu pakai headband nampaknya. Tengoklah gambar before and after. Dah macam testimoni yun nam hair care. Hihi. 

Sebelum

Selepas

Ahlan wa sahlan!

Alhamdulillah. My husband and I would like to inform the arrival of our precious princess, Raja Ayra. Ayra was born on 18 April 2014 at 6.32am in Kluang, Johor. Mummy and babah hope Ayra will be a good muslimah.

Deepest Condolences

Deepest condolences to all family members and friends of MH370 passangers and crews.
Itu semua rahsia Allah. Kita tak pasti apa yg berlaku sebenarnya walaupun sangat banyak spekulasi yg dibuat.
Melancholic songs on air since yesterday.
Yang pasti, aku fobia nak naik flight lepas ni. =.="


P/S: Kalau nak ucap takziah atas kematian atau berita buruk yg berlaku pd seseorang, hendaklah pada 3 hari pertama sahaja. Kecuali yg musafir. -Ustaz Don-

So Soon

We are one happy parents-to-be. Another 23 days to go. I wonder how our life would be after this. We are waiting for this moment since the day we tied our knot. Dear Baby, pls arrive soon. Mummy wants to see you at 38-39wks of pregnancy. I just want to cut this time short so that we could snuggle all day long. Mummy prays that everything will sail smoothly. We just can't wait to say hello to you, our precious gift from Allah.

Mummy has fought PCOS & took efforts to conceive you. Alhamdulillah, after 15 months of marriage, we finally have you in my womb. Allahuakbar. Allah has answered our prayers. Dear Baby, mummy and babah always pray for your health, safety ever since you were so tiny, as tiny as a single cell. Millimicron, maybe that small. 

Kawan2 mummy cakap, seronok ada baby. Kita ada biological alarm clock sendiri. Tak perlu dah set alarm lepas ni. Mummy suka sangat, sebab mummy ada habit yg teruk. Mummy adalah seorang yg gagal mengurus masa dgn baik. Mummy harap lepas ni mummy jadi lebih terurus dan hargai masa.

Akhir sekali, mummy letak gambar babah dan mummy masa kecik dan sekarang. Agaknya macam muka siapa awak ni ye?