Ayra's Birth Chronology

Alhamdulillah, dah 2 bulan bergelar ibu. I miss my pregnancy journey and it was such a wonderful experience. Ok, my due date was 18 April 2014, 40 weeks to be exact. I was hoping to give birth a week earlier so that my youngest sister would have enough time to babysit her niece at my mum's.

But I only felt Braxton Hicks a week before my due date. The sensation was irregular and mild. I told myself, "Bilalah nak datang sakit nak bersalin ni?".

To cut it short, on 16 April 2014 evening, i felt a few mild cramps, but they were irregular and were gone below 1 min. I was like, "Ah, they were just Braxton Hicks!". I still could bear the pain. Around 1 in the morning, I started to feel frequent cramps. I told DH to send me to the hospital early in the morning. I asked him to sleep well. But my pain was getting intense but still bearable. That whole night, I couldn't sleep. "I think the baby will pop out pretty soon!".

To fade away the pain, I went to my kitchen and cleaned some mess, swept the floor. And started to get my hospital bags ready. I tried to take cat nap because I was so tired and sleepy. At last, I felt asleep with the pain.

Around 6 am, I took my shower, performed Subuh prayer and recited Surah Maryam. But the pain was unbearable and became more frequent. I woke DH up and asked him to get ready. He also made me a mug of warm milo for energy.

We left our house for the hospital at 7.45am on 17 April. After registration at Dewan Bersalin, a nurse checked my baby's heart rate through CTG. When the contraction came, I just closed my eyes and recited Doa Nabi Yunus. I knew the time has come. The nurse did VE and I was 1cm dilated.

After an hour, a young female Dr did an ultrasound. She told me that my baby could weigh 3.6-3.8kg. And she considered as a big baby case. She also mentioned about having csect because of 'the big baby' plus this was my 1st pregnancy and it was quite risky. My heart was going to explode. I wasn't prepare for any major operation. I wanted a vaginal birth. The Dr from Klinik Kesihatan said my baby weighed below 3 kg. I was upset and speechless.

She asked me to stay at home until the contraction became more frequent and regular. The worst part was I threw up when the contractions came. In short, I was dehydrated. Then, we rushed to the hospital and finally I got admitted.

I couldn't bear the contraction. I asked for pain killers. A nurse gave me a jab but the pain wasn't subside. I was given IV drip to stay hydrated.

That night I asked for another pain killer jab. Ya Allah, the pain was unbearable. I wanted this child to pop out real soon. I also asked the nurses to do VE. At last, around 1230am, 18 April 2014, i was 5 cm dilated. Then, I was rushed to the labour room. Called DH to wait me there and get ready for the delivery.

At 530am, I was 6cm dilated but there was an urge to push the baby out. A young indian female Dr kept reminding me, "Don't push the baby out, wait until 10cm dilated.". She broke my waterbag to speed up the dilation rate. But the progress was pretty slow. I couldn't bear the urge. When the urge came, I had to pull and hold it back. The pain was getting worse, I asked for entonox and epidural.

Sadly, the Dr couldn't cater that because 1) entonox will keep me unsober and 'stoned'. 2) epidural can be requested during working hours 8am-5pm. The Dr said they will send me for emergency c-sect if my dilation progress is poor and she asked me to wait and bear the pain until 8am. I requested for the c-sect to be done soon and I didn't want to wait until 8am. Plus it was a 'big baby case'.

After getting a consensus from DH, they rushed me to the OT. Alhamdulillah, finally at 6.32 am on 18 April 2014, Raja Ayra bt. Raja Shafiq Mukri was born. She weighed 3.3kg. And they classified my case as,  LSCS for suspected big baby. I felt so relieved as long as my baby is safe and healthy.

Everything was fine, I was discharged on 20 April 2014. Alhamdulillah, now my career as a mother has just begun. May the force be with me always.

Fresh from womb

The new (swelling) mom

The baby who was suspected to be big

The not-so-big baby that weighed only 3.3kg

Throwback: At 32 weeks of pregnancy

Masa mengandungkan Ayra at 32 weeks, Ayra bagi 'heart attack' kat mummy. Hari tu pada 15 Feb 2014 gerakan baby kurang dari 10 pada jam 10 mlm. Aku dah menangis2 risau. Aku dah cakap kat DH yg aku nak gi hospital nak check. Dia yakin kata, "Mesti ok tu.",

Aku yg mengandung lagi cuak sebab dari tengahari baby kurang aktif. Biasa lepas makan dia tendang2, tapi hari tu bila aku tekan2 perut, respon kurang.

Ok, jam 10.30 mlm tu akhirnya kami ke hospital. Tak jauh pun, 5min drive je. Aku dah siap standby baju2 mana tau kena tahan wad. Sampai je Dewan Bersalin, nurse buat CTG. Surprisingly masa buat CTG tu baby kemain aktif. Haa..sahlah anak aku ni aktif malam2.

Dr kata aku kena tahan wad, nak monitor baby 24 jam katanya. Setiap 4 jam nurse akan check heartbeat baby. Alhamdulillah semua normal. Dua hari kena tahan wad dah macam orang sakit pulak. Tidur makan tidur makan. Oh, aku buat post ni sebab aku nak dokumenkan 1st pregnancy aku ni. Jadi macam jurnal, so that someday Ayra dan adik2nya (InshaAllah jika ada rezeki lagi) boleh baca jurnal yg aku tulis ni.

I was like, "Alaaaa kena tahan wad. Nanti Yang tidur sorang2.."

So Soon

We are one happy parents-to-be. Another 23 days to go. I wonder how our life would be after this. We are waiting for this moment since the day we tied our knot. Dear Baby, pls arrive soon. Mummy wants to see you at 38-39wks of pregnancy. I just want to cut this time short so that we could snuggle all day long. Mummy prays that everything will sail smoothly. We just can't wait to say hello to you, our precious gift from Allah.

Mummy has fought PCOS & took efforts to conceive you. Alhamdulillah, after 15 months of marriage, we finally have you in my womb. Allahuakbar. Allah has answered our prayers. Dear Baby, mummy and babah always pray for your health, safety ever since you were so tiny, as tiny as a single cell. Millimicron, maybe that small. 

Kawan2 mummy cakap, seronok ada baby. Kita ada biological alarm clock sendiri. Tak perlu dah set alarm lepas ni. Mummy suka sangat, sebab mummy ada habit yg teruk. Mummy adalah seorang yg gagal mengurus masa dgn baik. Mummy harap lepas ni mummy jadi lebih terurus dan hargai masa.

Akhir sekali, mummy letak gambar babah dan mummy masa kecik dan sekarang. Agaknya macam muka siapa awak ni ye? 

Coz Being Pregnant at 36wks Is Too Mainstream

As of today I am 36wks 2 days pregnant. Braxton Hicks has started to double up its frequency. I can't barely sleep well. I have to change my position from side to side. 1 position only last for 20-30 mins I guess. It is painful every time I change my position, because the pelvic pain is killing me. I prefer lying on my left side. Ya Allah, terima kasih kerana berikanku peluang merasai pengalaman mengandung. Baru tau betapa payahnya ibu2 kita mengandung & melahirkan kita. 

I have to drag myself to pee every 3 hours. My tummy is getting bigger each day. Need to catch up my breath more. Little girl is doing fine but sometime hiccups just can't be avoided. Suami suruh minum air bagi baby tak tersedu. LOL. 

Dulu masa sebelum 34 weeks aku rasa aku boleh jalan laju lagi, tapi sejak akhir2 ni aku mengalah. Sebab aku cepat mengah & kelengkang aku sengal2. Kawan aku cakap, budak dah makin besar & dah turun. Ye ke? Malam2 sebelum tidur wajib minta tolong suami urut pinggang & picit tangan. Kesian dia, sekarang pun standby mode dia dah aktif . Kadang2 tengah malam Braxton hicks datang.

Until at 1 point, I told husband, I want to deliver at 38-39 wks. Sebab dah tak sabar sangat. Oh ye, cuti bersalin aku ambil seminggu awal dari EDD. I hope I can deliver within that week. Lagipun adik aku cuti seminggu, boleh dia tolong jaga aku sekali sebab mak aku sekolah. Mana dapat jenguk aku lama kat rumah.

I've got 2 weeks time before I start my maternity leave. Mood kerja pun ke laut. Hari2 dok google baca review pengalaman orang bersalin anak sulung. Serius takde mood nak buat research. The worst part is aku kadang2 tengah baca jurnal boleh pulak tertidur dalam keadaan duduk. Yelah mengantuk. Mana tak nya malam2 pun susah tidur sekarang.

Hai anak, awak ni kalau nak keluar minggu 38-39 pun mummy ok je bebeh! Tak mau overdue tau sebab mummy tak nak beranakkan awak dgn induction. Ok, minggu ni kita tengok tekak nak makan apa. Sebab minggu lepas awak nak pizza super supreme kan.. Awak makanlah puas2, sebab esok dah keluar awak minum susu je ye..

Of Pregnancy and Whatnot

What I Have Gone Through So Far

I am currently weigh 69.1 kg. Have gained 12.1 kg throughout this first pregnancy.

Did 2x modified glucose tolerance test (MGTT). Both results are normal.

Got 2 jabs.

Will enter 35 weeks this Saturday. Left foot has begun to swollen (Edema).

Back pain has subsided, but pelvic pain is getting more intense.

Did notice ever since I got pregnant, I love bread. Breakfast and dinner.

Once being hospitalized. Less than 10x baby movement. However, she is now doing fine and happily growing.

Did 2x 4D ultrasound. At 25 weeks and 30 weeks. And to confirm her gender.

How Do I Prepare for Labour

Of breastfeeding preparation, I've done some breast massage. Husband keeps reminding me, "Dah urut ke belom?"

Breathing technique during contraction and delivery. Had jot down the techniques for me to hafal dan praktis. Heeeeeeee-haaaeeeeee. Hee-haa-hee-haa. Hee-hee-haaaaaaa. Lastly, Heeeeeeee-pushhhhh and haaaaaa.

Baby's hospital bag is ready, but mummy's?

Practice some Quran verse, Surah Maryam (to ease labour), Doa Nabi Yunos (while you are in distress), ask husband to make air selusuh. Will find some zamzam water & kurma to keep me revived.

Mind-setting: vaginal delivery, natural birth, say no to epi. <--- Do I have what it takes?

Finally, stay calm because April is coming soon!

Pau Daging

Last night I had a dream. An awkward dream. I had a dream of a hot fluffy beef pau. Gebu dan putih pau tu. Masih berasap. Not sure it was me or the baby who is now craving for beef pau. Dalam otak masa tidur malam tadi siap set, must get one beef pau! Pagi2 bagitau husband, "Nanti petang nak pau daging ye. ". Womb service memang ajaib! Siap hantar dalam mimpi, macam telepati!

Dear Baby

I am sorry kadang2 mummy busy kat office sampai tak sempat nak main2 dgn baby. Selalu awak aktif time mummy kat office kan. Sebab awak nak mummy pay attention at your every single movement. Mummy bukan neglect awak ye dear baby. Mummy sibuk 'bersilat' dengan report and scientific journal yang bos mummy nak mummy hantar draft sebelum mummy jumpa baby bulan April ni.

Tapi kenapa last week baby tak mau respond sangat dengan mummy eventhough mummy dah makan, tekan2 perut ajak baby main dengan mummy? Mummy kira movement baby tak banyak macam selalu. Malam Sabtu mummy kira macam belum cukup 10 movement dalam 12 jam. Mummy dah tak sedap hati. Masa tengok Fear Factor mummy dah nangis2 risaukan baby. Terus ajak babah pergi hospital. Nasib baik hospital tu 5 min je dari rumah kita. Babah cakap, siap2 bawak baju, mana tau mummy kena admit wad.

Sampai je hospital, mummy and babah terus ke dewan bersalin jumpa nurse. Masa tu dah pukul 10.30 mlm kalau tak silap. So nurse pun check heartbeat baby. Alhamdulillah, reading ok. Mummy bersyukur sangat. Lega sikit. Then proceed with CTG. Mummy dengar heartbeat awak laju, macam kuda berlari. Graf pun nampak normal & cantik. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Lepas tu tunggu Dr untuk scan awak. Masa ni adalah dalam sejam mummy tunggu sebab Dr ada kes bersalin kat labour room. Masa tu mummy siap dengar lagi nurse2 bagi semangat kat ibu tu, tak lama tu dengar suara baby. Wah seronok mummy dengar. Terus tak sabar nak cepatkan masa bulan April.

After an hour, Dr pun attend. Dr Yong tu muda lagi. Nampak polite. Banyak juga dia cerita kat mummy. Dr Yong pun kata confirm yg awak ni girl. Dia tunjuk jantung awak kat mummy. Alhamdulillah, mummy lega sangat2. Tapi Dr Yong suruh mummy admit wad untuk monitor lagi heartbeat awak. Mummy pun pasrah je lah. 

Mummy dok wad kelas 2. Ada 4 katil & 2 toilet kat dalam tu. Not bad la. Facility hospital semua baru. Mummy pun puas hati. Setiap 4 jam nurse akan datang check blood pressure mummy & monitor heartbeat baby dengan doppler. Esoknya nurse buat CTG 2x lagi untuk tengok pattern hearbeat awak. Alhamdulillah, syukur, movement pun dah normal. Nurse cakap, kadang2 awak ni tidur lama ni.

Hai lah anak, jangan buat mummy & babah panik lagi ye sayang. Risau sangat2. Ada lagi 60 hari untuk awak enjoy dalam perut mummy sebelum tengok dunia luar jumpa mummy, boleh kita bertentang mata ye sayang. Hang in there dear baby, be strong & stay healthy!

"I was crying writing this." <--- cengeng kan mummy? 

Braxton Hicks

I am not sure what does it feel like having this false labour sensation. Last night during cooking hour, I told husband that I had a mild cramp. The feeling was just like your pre-menstrual cramp. But the pain was bearable and only last for a couple of minutes.

Was that a Braxton Hicks? I am 30w4d pregnant. Do all expectant moms will experience this?

Maternity Photo Shoot Experience

Alhamdulillah, finally we did! Last Friday evening, (oh ye, FYI, gov Johor cuti Jumaat & Sabtu), we had fun having a maternity photo shoot at Pantai Perpat. Thanks to our OP Foto by Razali for helping us capturing this wonderful moment. Here's some sneak peeks!

Entering 30 wks

Mashaallah, how times fly. 10 wks to end this wonderful journey. And almost reach to the final stage. So soon to meet my baby that we have waited for 15 months. Alhamdulillah, Allah has eased my journey & I really enjoyed the moments.

As for the prep for our lil one, me & husband haven't gone shopping for our baby's outfits. Kononnya nak pergi shopping masa 32 wks boleh aku exercise berjalan banyak sekaligus. Secara psikologi, kalau untuk menyarung sepasang running shoes & mengenakan sweat pants with cotton shirt adalah 'bercinta' untuk aku buat. Dengan alasan, takde mase la... Tapi bila bab shopping hatta berpusing 1 shopping mall pun aku rela.. So, nak mudah, ajak je husband pergi shopping, maka isterinya yg bulat ini akan memulakan seribu langkah. Haha.

Part yg tak syok bagi aku ialah aku dah buat 2x test minum air gula or Modified Glucose Tolerance Test (MGTT). Yg aku nak marah kat Dr klinik kesihatan tu ialah dia macam sloppy je bila check reading Random Blood Sugar aku. Tanpa membuat sedikit penelitian, dia ikut je apa yg lab technologist tu punya result. Balik rumah ceritalah kat husband aku. Oh ye, husband aku kerja dia kat hospital dekat lab macam tu, yg buat analysis blood, urine sample tu semua. The point is, husband said my blood sugar is OK. NORMAL. He was pissed off when he heard about the Dr's sloppiness when it comes to analysing a patient's blood test. Dia kesianlah kat wife dia kena minum gula 2x padahal previous result aku NORMAL. Aku bab puasa, cucuk2 ambil darah ni takde hal. Yg jadi hal, bab nak minum glucose syrup tu. Serius macam scene fear factor kau tau. U know kat gov punya syrup tu rasa dia plain. Aku dengar kat private ada flavor grape, orange lagi. Sorry aku mengomel pasal aku geram kat Dr yg sloppy2 je kerjanya. 

Sekarang dah 30wks. Dalam otak ni hanya fikir, bila aku nak beranak ni? Sebab aku ada several makanan yg aku teringin nak makan sebelum aku beranak. Aku teringin Coconut shake Klebang, nak makan tengahari kat kedai kari kepala ikan kat Bukit Katil, Melaka, aku nak biskut mazola jugak. Padahal time tak pregnant & hari raya biskut mazola tu aku tak heran langsung. 

Finishing the 2nd Trimester

Currently I'm 26 weeks pregnant. Another 1 week to finish my 2nd trimester. Alhamdulillah both mummy & baby are doing well. Undergone a 4D ultrasound at 25 weeks. Me and husband were over the moon the moment we saw our lil one. To our surprise she managed to open her mouth repeatedly. That has brought husband to a big grin. Meanwhile mummy is so obsess seeing her baby's 4D picture, rubbing her belly and say, "Sayang anak mummy, cepat besar dan sihat yeeee..". What a bliss! Syukur..

Last weekend, mummy and babah had spent some ka-ching to buy some necessities for their baby. Ok, mummy yg over excited bila shopping untuk anak. Sebelum ni, masuk baby shop beli present utk baby kawan2, but this time, shopping utk anak sendiri. Of course super duper happy kan... Tapi bila balik, kaki dan badan mula sakit2. Ah, kecik punya hal tu, urut2 guna minyak panas hilanglah sakit.

I've gained 8 kg throughout this journey. Ah, I just don't give a damn. Nanti time berpantang kita akan dapat kurus balik. Haha. Mampukah? Oh ye, we had register for an ante-natal class at KPJ Johor Bahru end of this month. Murah sangat, RM32 per couple. Lagi pun, ada banyak praktikal. First moms elok pergi kelas tu sebab diorang akan coach kita macam2. 

Bab vacation pun tak update lagi, nak upload picture lagilah 'rajin' kan.. Sekarang ni dalam fasa membuat persediaan mental dan fiikal menghadapi kelahiran tak lama lagi. Fuh, paling cepat pun baca kes ada yg deliver at 35 weeks. Meaning to say, kalau deliver awal, paling2 pun ada plus minus 10 weeks je. Fuh fuh fuh... Bab nak deliver pun 1 hal lagi, tak tau kat mana. Aisey, husband update specialist kat hospital dia ramai yg dah transfer hospital lain. Hm, kalau nak beranak kat KPJ, specialist dia lelaki pulak, bab2 seluk2 ni yg buat iol risau kalau Dr lelaki. Macam mana ni?

That Worries Me

I will enter 21 weeks this Saturday. The problem is, I am not sure if I have felt movements from my baby. How is my baby doing? Is he/she growing well? This situation puts me in anxiety.

Last Saturday, before bed, I started to worry. I barely close my eyes to sleep. On the next day, I asked husband to send me to seek for a Dr. Ultrasound done and Alhamdulillah, my baby is doing fine. I saw my baby's heartbeat and that was a quick relief. 

As of today, I am still in a state of confusion. The nurses & the gynae of Klinik Kesihatan keep asking me if I have felt any movements. I don't have any clues as this is my first time. My friends said, the movement is like a sensation of a butterfly flapping its wing so hard and rapidly. I do felt like a gas moving quickly in my womb. I think that came from the movement. Please help me to calm myself. I feel discourage. -_-"

Bakal Ibu Terlampau

Aku ni melampau tau. Dulu sebelum preggy siap berangan bila preggy nanti nak buat maternity photo shoot la. Siap fikir props apa yg aku akan guna nanti. Lepas tu siap dok prepare nama2 anak lelaki & perempuan. Haihhh.. Pathetic tak aku?

Tapi sekarang lagi melampau-lampau. Aku siap dah terbayang nak buat majlis aqiqah & cukur jambul kat rumah mama. Nak ada buaian berendoi. Aku dah fikir tema color siap2. Kalau baby girl, dia akan pakai maxi dress aku masa baby dulu yg color peach & headband putih, family aku pun pakai peach. Kalau baby boy, aku nak pakaikan dia baju melayu light yellow, maka family aku pun akan pakai light yellow. Tak ketinggalan doorgift nak bagi pulut kuning, kari ayam & kurma sebab nanti aku cun2 habis confinement hujung Mei, early June or mid June boleh buat majlis. See, berangan kan.. Or lebih kepada plan ni? #tepukdahi

Lepas tu lagi berangan nak celebrate 1st birthday kat rumah baru kami. Siap dah berangan menu apa, kek macam mana, deko macam mana nak buat. Hailah anak, mummy awak ni outrageous sangat tau!

Lepas tu, aku siap dah fikir education anak aku. Umur 4 tahun aku nak enroll dia kat islamic kindergarden, yg guna English lebih sikit dari BM. Hmm, mana aku nak cari kat sini? Kalau bandar besar senanglah. Lepas tu nak guna psikologi pendidikan macam yg Wardina Safiyyah buat kat anak dia. Mampukah kami?

After all, anak aku ni baru je 5 bulan dalam rahim ni. Mummy dia baik punya berangan lebih kan. Of course la sebagai 1st mom-to-be... Eh, korang ada ke berangan macam aku ni?

Didikan di Alam Rahim

Alhamdulillah, today is Friday. Siapa tak happy berseri2 di waktu pagi di ofis setiap pagi Jumaat? Aku nak kongsi sikit pasal didikan di alam rahim ni. Siapa tak nak anak yg cerdik & sihat kan.. Dari awal lagi semasa dalam kandungan pun dah banyak homework yg si ibu kena buat.

1) makan makanan sunnah/makanan yg Rasulullah gemar- susu kambing, kurma, madu, delima, kismis, kekacang

2) ambil nutrisi yg cukup- sila rujuk physician anda sebab nutrisi ibu2 mengandung ni tak sama

3) dekatkan diri kepada Allah- jaga solat, tambah dengan solat sunat, baca al-quran, dengar ayat2 suci al-quran (yang ni aku pun masih tak betul lagi. semoga Allah bukakan jalan utk aku)

4) elakkan pergi di tempat2 yang bising (konsert/pusat kareoke/panggung wayang/pesta2 hiburan spt jom heboh, astro planet gempak)

5) jaga percakapan, penglihatan & perbuatan (aku kalau driving sebelum ni memang suka menyumpah2. siapa yg tak sakit hati dgn attitude malaysian drivers? tapi sekarang bila nak marah je, terus istighfar sambil usap2 perut cakap,"Sorry baby, mummy tak nak buat dah. Baby jangan ikut macam tu ok.")

6) dapatkan rehat yang cukup (yg ni aku rasa mcm dah lebih pulak sebab aku ni dari zaman anak dara lagi memang pantang takde apa nak buat, berkeroh aku kat atas katil. buruk betul perangai kan..)

7) amalkan gaya hidup sihat & menjadi rajin (tak boleh bagi alasan, aku pregnant, tak boleh buat kerja rumahlah..mak aku selalu cakap, "Kalau tak rajin2, asyik baring je, baby boleh jadi besar.")

8) sentiasa keluarkan aura2 positif (bergaul dengan orang2 baik, jangan stres dan pakailah cantik2 & wangi ke tempat kerja/semasa keluar sebab ia akan mempengaruhi positive vibe tau)

Hello 2nd Trimester

Syukur, I'm 14w5d pregnant. Baby is doing fine. Last Saturday, junior midwife dropped by at our house around 10am. Without giving any notification! She didn't call me earlier. During weekends, I usually take late shower. Around 11-ish. I was in my kaftan (baju kelawar tidur tu) the moment she came and gave salam. Oh-oh.. I am in trouble. I was totally pissed-off. After 5 mins of rushing and got changed, I opened the door and welcomed her. Lucky me, it was a short visit. She recorded my blood pressure and measured my bump size. 

My appetite has recovered. But I choose my meal. Pulut, still rejected especially lemang. Chicken rendang, also out of my list. Curry noodle or oily broth? Sorry, I have to say no. To date, my morning sickness slowly subside. I rarely experience nauseous feeling and headache. Alhamdulillah. But back pain, is sometimes unbearable. 

Mummy now dah makin manja. In fact, sebelum preggy pun manja jugak. Husband pun layankan je. Tidur nak kena picit badan/pingggang/bahu. Baru lena tidur. Wekk, gedik! Ala... Biarlah kan. Time preggy la boleh manja2 macam ni. Esok2 dah ada baby, tak boleh buat perangai ngada2 gedik tu. 

My mom is so excited when my bump started to protrude. She talks about buying her future grandchild a Fisher Price bouncer, toys, mini playground, table and chairs. Actually, both moms are so excited. They always share their pregnancy and labour experience. 

I started to bid farewell to baju kurung, and say hello to maxi. Kain rasa ketat dan perut rasa senak. I can't breathe! I just can't wait for Dec. It's shopping time. Dah 6 bulan, baru boleh beli barang2 baby. Wah, bestnya! tengok blogshop or baby shop online pun geram je tangan rasa nak click 'Add to cart'. 

Don't Panic!

Panic #1:

Is my baby growing well?

This question always pop out from my mind. Yeah, as a mother-to-be for the very 1st time, i can't stop worrying about my fetus. If you are feeling the symptoms of pregnancy, morning sickness (anytime of day), gaining weight, if your stomach is growing and your breasts are tender, those are all good signs. But not all ladies will feel those things.

Bottom line, just keep calm and pray for both safety and health. Bukan ke belly dah start protruding? 

Panic #2:

Chapped lips and sometimes they bleed!

Pregnant women tend to experience this because our body need more liquid, retaining fluid and increasing blood flow. So stop licking your lips, and get more water. I do! I drink 1.5 L - 2.0 L of water daily. Even when I wake up in the mid of the night to pee, I must take one or two big gulps of water to top up.

Bottom line, I must drink a lot during hot weather. Sekarang siang2 panas terik kat area Johor. 

Panic #3:

Do every women in labour needs epidural? How about natural birth? How does it feel?

I have read some articles on taking epi during labour. After having some thoughts, I think I wanna go for natural birth. This is because epidural has bad effects on both mother and child. But how can I be so sure? I have zero labour experience. You know what scares me? It is during post-natal stitching. Am I going to be given anesthetics? Or will the gynae/midwives just stitch my perineum without giving any warnings? My oh my..

Bottom line, I must massage my perineum area with virgin coconut oil after 30 weeks and do Kegel exercise to make giving birth easier.

Panic #4:

Can the nurses of general hosp be nice to me during pre and post-natal?

This really concerns me. People will always make foolish notion about general hosp nurses. Are they that bad and nasty? I always ask my friends how 'garang' the nurses are. But they just deny the fact because nurses back in early 90s were mostly old and 'banyak membebel' compared to newschool nurses. There are more young and kind nurses nowadays. I hope they will treat me well and nicely. 

Bottom line, I opt to deliver my baby at general hosp and husband can take care of me there and I have a ticket that goes like, "I am a wife of a staff in Pathology Dept. Please don't be 'garang' to me!"

Short Update

Lama tak tulis apa2 kat blog.
Lately nak menaip tu rasa 'bercinta' sangat.
Sekarang dah masuk 3 bulan.
Tak sabar nak masuk 2nd trim.
Tapi perut dah makin obvious.
Dah ada orang yg tegur perut nampak besar.
"Jangan2 ada 2 tak?"
"Ish, takdelah kak, haritu scan nampak 1 je, lagipun takde genetik kembar."

Lately, dah malas nak pakai baju kurung.
Kain tu buat perut rasa senak.
So, end up dengan beli maxi poplook banyak2.
Best je pakai maxi sebab rasa loose.
Kalau kat rumah pun tak best dah pakai seluar ni.
Suka lagi pakai kaftan.
Janji perut aku happy. Eh?

Alhamdulillah, selera makan adah ada.
Cuma kadang2 tu memilih.
Dah muak sebenarnya makan lauk2 kedai ni.
So haritu request kat husband minta tolong goreng2 kan nasi dan bihun.
Bukan ngade2 tau, tapi aku tak boleh bau tumis2 ni.
Weekend pun breakfast nak yg homemade jugak.

Aku terfikir esok2 kalau aku nak deliver kat hosp gov,
masa buat stitching tu diorang bius tak?
Aku tak nak fikir sakit contraction masa bersalin.
Sebab aku dah tak sabar nak cepat bagi baby lahir.
Tak sabar nak golek2 dengan baby.

Kalau aku beranak kat gov,
sebab husband aku staf sana,
Bolehlah nurse2 tu bagi extra care kat aku.
Wad pun boleh upgrade yg best.
Tapi...tapi...tapi...
Dah pernah cakap kat husband,
"Yang, utk deliver kali pertama ni, nak gi kat KPJ la."
Husband pun ok je.
Tapi bila fikir balik kalau aku tiba2 kena emergency c-sect?
Mestilah bil lagi mahal.
Lagipun company aku hanya boleh cover ubat2 je. =_="

Hm, hm.. Nak beli maternity pillow ah.
Nak tidur sekarang kemain payah nak cari pose terbaik.
Selalu mengiring tapi nak kena sendal bantal kat spine.
Jadi, haruslah dapatkan 1 segera!
Hai lah mata, kenapa asyik ngantuk2 je ni?
Memang preggy macam tu eh?
Rasa nak bam-bam je.

Oh, aku dah tak minum Anmum dah.
Walaupun perasa mango bagai.
Sebab aku lebih favor susu kambing hi-goat.
Tapi masa nak conceive pun aku memang amalkan.
Orang cakap panas. Ye ke?
Aku minum susu je kot bukan makan daging kambing.
Tapi yg pasti ramai kawan2 aku cakap susu kambing bagus,
anak inshaAllah tak mudah kena jaundice.
Plus, aku ni darah B+, Dr aku cakap orang2 darah B bagus minum susu kambing.

Lagi 1, sekarang dah kena rajin buat latihan Maths
atau apa2 soalan berbentuk IQ.
Ala, simple Maths pun takpe.
Jangan korang buat Addmaths F4/F5,
lagi stress hoi..
Korang tau kenapa orang Yahudi pandai2?
Sebab masa mak diorang pregnant, mak diorang rajin buat Maths, makan kekacang.
So, tak salah kalau kita ambil contoh perkara yg baik mcm ni kan?

Eh, tadi tajuk kata 'Short Update',
ni dah panjang lak.
Ok, bai.

Mengidam Story

I called it 'mengidam' as I am now entering 10w4d pregnant.

Last week we were at my parents'.

I was craving for kari ikan utara style with lotsa okra & pekasam aloq staq.

Lucky me, as I reached home, mama had cooked those for me.
Bukan main selera makan, selalu tengok nasi nak tak nak je.

Thank you mama, I love u to the max!

On the other hand, I was craving for sukun goreng & aiskrim malaysia asam boi.

Alhamdulillah, ada rezeki.

Only homemade soy milk is still on the list.

I refuse to drink soy milk from the stores.

Preservatives are no good for both of us.

One thing I did notice is that ever since I got pregnant,

I love to stare & look deeply at my husband.

Even at the office, I just browse my photo folder and look at his face (smilling).

Rindu suami setiap saat.

Eeee, gedik tak?

Come on, dear lil one inside me.

Please have a speedy growth.

Mummy can't wait to hug u!

Heartbeat

Alhamdulillah, i managed to register at Klinik Ibu & Anak.
Glad that I am now entering motherhood.
To my surprise, the Dr said that I am now 9w4d pregnant according to my fetus size.
I thank Allah as I saw my fetus heartbeat.
Subhanallah, Allah dah tiupkan roh ke atas kandunganku.
"Tengok heartbeat dia, laju. Awak nampak?"
Aku angguk je sebab macam tak percaya.
I hope my morning sickness will go soon.
I can't wait to indulge again my favorite dishes.

Alahan

I am 7 weeks 5 days pregnant.
Alhamdulillah.
Aku dapati sejak pregnant ni, habit aku dah berubah.
Ok, dulu aku sukakan makanan pedas.
Sekarang, tak leh pedas langsung, terus rasa loya, perut pun jadi tak selesa.
Sekarang aku sensitif kat cahaya terang.
Sebab aku pening, lepas tu jadi loya.
Kat office pun aku bukak 1 lampu je.
Monitor komputer aku off bila tunggu email masuk.
Pagi2 nak mandi pun aku sanggup tak bukak lampu toilet.
Biar pintu toilet renggang sikit, asal cahaya lampu bilik boleh masuk.
Ala, lagipun kami berdua je. So, takde risau orang nak tengok aku mandi.
Iklan makanan kat TV or any food channels (AFC, LI, Food Network) dah aku banned.
Sebab aku boleh loya.

Ya Allah, pagi2 kat office je aku jadi sayur.
Memang minyak angin sentiasa ada kat tangan.
Pagi2 duduk diam2 kat meja, sambil picit2 kepala.
Kadang2, bila teruk sangat, aku minta time-off.
Aku harap Allah beri kekuatan pada aku untuk trimester yg paling mencabar ni.
Kadang2 bila dah rasa flat sangat, boleh pulak cakap kat husband yg aku sanggup nak amik drip.

Minggu depan dah 2 bulan.
Harap2 hujung2 trimester 1 ni dah ok segala sickness.
Ohhh, pening lagi.
Ok, bai!